We have an intense Scorpio Full Moon on Monday 30th April at 1.58 am GMT. This is a pretty complex Full Moon, and the astrology that follows is equally revealing for the month of May. Many are feeling a need for massive change and that life should be more than what it is. People are waking up to the urge and yearning for change and freedom. There are a few astrological patterns that are reflecting this deep inner longing.
The Mars-Pluto conjunction of last week, while less intense, continues to test our own relationship to power, authority, the masculine and to most importantly to each other and our own sense of self. Where does your power life? Do you see perceive it to be inside or outside of you? Are you able to dance with authority, professionalism and boundaries in tandem with your own inner authority and truth?
In many ways, the past week and continuing at this New Moon is showing us how to work with both higher and lower rank status in our relationships. Understanding how we might have high rank in terms of our social or contextual rank, but feel a low psychological or emotional rank or vice versa, helps us become more aware of how our unconscious rank affects our relationship.
We get into trouble when we either identify as victims with less authority or rank, not seeing the power we do have or we have unconsciousness around our higher rank. All of this can lead to guilt, paralysis, trying to be good or defensiveness. Often one person feels hurt, put down and perhaps unconsciously wants revenge. Often both can feel put down and neither identify with where they hold the power.
A massive paradigm shift occurs with Uranus about slipping into Taurus at the eve of the next New Moon in May. This heralds a strong shift towards the feminine polarity, the earth and water signs. With this brings reality checks and an opportunity to address suppressed truth, feelings and desires. For those that avoid feelings, connection, spirit and hide behind roles of power, the pressure is mounting.
There can be a lot of interpersonal challenges at this time, but it feels predominantly like a journey of self-discovery into the barriers we put up between ourselves and others, but also within ourselves. Everything that happens on the outside is a reflection of what our consciousness is carrying about us, that others orientate around. We can be wise and aware of how we reflect others reality back to them, or we can create more pain and suffering.
It’s good at this time to remember the basic skills of knowing how to listen without interpreting or interrupting, using”I” to get across our message (as opposed to blaming), naming and bringing up conflicts and issues directly, and sensitively giving feedback.
For many, the last New Moon and Mercury direct revealed new external information or a new revelation about yourself. It perhaps unleashed an exciting new dynamic to work with, or a desire for something different.
The best way to approach this energy is to speak your truth, with respect to others. The truth sets you free. We don’t need to drop into the difficult emotions that tend to gather around speaking our truth – the shame, guilt or regret around just being yourself. They can be avoided if you just stand for yourself in the truth of your feelings and emotions. You can just be yourself. There’s no need to hide if you just own your stuff.
Perhaps this is what Chiron in Aries wants from us, a spiritual warriorship where we see our role as one to learn and grow, while caring for our relationships, welcoming both our troubles and love, saying yes to getting into stuff, rather than just hiding or being scared. It’s a time to start seeing and recognising the inherent value of the other people in your life, that everyone has a deep need to be seen and appreciated.
Of course with all this Capricorn energy (Pluto, Mars and Saturn) there’s a need for boundaries, authority, professionalism and all the other things that go along with that – this protects the vulnerable and prevents abuse.
But if we could just occupy our feelings and awareness with more presence in our relationship with each other, and not cut off in some misguided notion that this is keeping ourselves and others safe, then we might have a more whole sense of feeling safe, rather than one than cuts off ourselves from each other.
In many ways, it is now the feminine qualities that are coming into their leadership. Leading through modelling being in our feelings, with no shame, despite being faced with stoney faces and the traditional, classic perspective of what power, responsibility, leadership and authority is. This is fundamentally the change taking place – one of no shame for existing as a human being, with emotions, a body, feelings, a soul, a spirit, and a moment to moment connection to the intangible world.
It is still largely forbidden and taboo to use intuition, gut, senses, knowing and feelings to navigate relationships, especially in professional environments. In the month of May, some will be charged with standing up for what they see, feel and sense, rather than their thinking processes.
That doesn’t mean you will get the response you deserve or want for being authentic in this way, but it does set you free inside, and possibly encourage others to face the reality of their own imprisonment, of their own making and choice.
It’s useful to remember that those who choose to adhere to a patriarchal paradigm, hold authority, leadership and boundaries so tightly when they are afraid of their feelings and simply feel they cannot trust their skills to facilitate their own emotions. It’s the only thing they can do. It is everyones responsibility to help people who do not have the skills, rather than judge and blame.
It’s time to release the burdens of what it means to be yourself, so hearts can fully open, with no shame. For women especially, sometimes the hardest gift to give others is to respect the boundaries that feel so unfair, false and unreal, that cut off the feeling and intangible world in the name of boundaries.
While the answer is not always to express, at this time it is, but with a deep respect and understanding of why boundaries are important and why the past has been as it is. It can be an opportunity to see yourself with new eyes, a new voice, in a new light, not one that polarises the distorted masculine but embraces why it’s been there. This is the path of the Tao.
We can make big shifts in our awareness and consciousness if we are able to embrace that North Node in Leo, and be brave with awareness of when to hold back and when to speak. The answer is always to follow your feelings and trust what arises.
So our interpersonal relationships continue to be a hot growth spot as we learn to engage perhaps differently with our feelings and individual humanity. Chiron in Aries at zero degrees is forcing many on their spiritual journey to examine how real they are being, how authentic and in their truth they stand. Its about the very nature of our existence and all the wounds around not being seen, heard or acknowledged.
The reality is that the very nature of feeling can be excruciating, so much so that the pain emotions engender cannot be faced. This is for men and women.
For women, much of that pain, comes in the space of the in-between worlds. Women struggle with the gap – the possibility, what they see and imagine to be there, and what is in reality there in the moment. Women live more in the land of possibility. They prefer to see what they want to see, not what is there.
For men, it’s being cut off from the world of feeling and emotions, owning their vulnerability and learning to know the inner true expression of the Divine masculine.
The size of the gap between potential and reality is what makes it painful. As well as the length of time we tend in spend in either spectrum end before we allow ourselves to enter into the other polarity. It’s the space in between that is useful for me.
Lets learn to manage relationships from the reality that we face, rather than where we see them going or ending. We so frequency are told we need to ‘let him go, he can’t give you what you want’, but its more often the case that we need to let go of our attachment to there being something there that isn’t actually there in the moment, not the human being itself (while knowing when it gets painful, and we can’t negotiate that in-between space, then it becomes necessary to exorcise the person).
When we become incredibly present with ourselves, with our very existence and the intrinsic I am, we start to unhook ourselves from others and we can then see where all the attachments are. We can be present with each other, with all the different roles and choices that we make, we don’t need to polarise from each other. We can hold a dance of the opposites and different sides. We can navigate within the confines of what’s acceptable, what’s possible and what’s actually there, in the moment.
Our essential existence is about us becoming ourselves, in all our sentience, intangibility and tangibility, without any marginalisation – this is wholeness. We can be there in an expanded place, in a very everyday reality, and this is truly liberating.
This month, with the shift of Uranus into Taurus and Mars into Aquarius, ruled by Uranus, there is a further amplification of a liberation process which will help us harness the Uranus-Aquarius energies of humanity, sisterhood, connection and community. We have the opportunity to live with an entirely different, innovative set of values, with Uranus in Taurus.
Keep following whatever keeps you engaged in your relationships, intimacy, connection and life. Resist polarising, keep your centre and power within and learn to grow through whatever life brings.